Inside and Out

What up!

I'm sorry, that last blog was pretty... emotional. I'm also sorry that the last few blogs have been pretty vague - but hey, I promise that this one will be crystal clear. Sort of.

Today is Christmas. I guess it's Filipino tradition to celebrate Christmas Eve more than Christmas itself, so last night my grandma cooked a lot of food - maybe too much food. It was really good having the family together again.

My uncle finally came back from San Diego, and that always makes me feel better. We played music all night - him on the guitar, and me on piano. I don't know, but there's just something about him being here that makes me feel like I'm actually at home. I think the reason might be because I see him as more of a dad than my real one. I love that he actually supports me in everything I do - especially with music.

My co-worker Suzette got me to join her band - RubySue and the Ethereal Blues - playing the keys and doing back-up vocals. It's been really fun so far. We're in the process of recording, and we've got two gigs coming up (the Pig n' Whistle on Jan. 24th and the Rainbow Room sometime in February). It's funny how she asked me to be in it, though. I was just in the kitchen in the back doing dishes and singing, thinking no one could hear me... and as soon as I walk out into the café, Suzette walks up to me and asks to be in the band. And after that... well, h'yeah. I'm kind of nervous about the shows, though. We still need to get everything together. I hope it all goes well.

I'm still not sure if I'll be going to San Francisco or Long Beach in the fall, but either way I'm thinking of taking up a semester at LACC. My brain is slowly rotting away, and I need to fix that. also just got a letter from NYU and they're offering a summer program to take care of some units. That would be amazing if I could save up the money to go. I feel like such a nerd being so excited for school, but I really do miss it. I'm secretly jealous of everyone who went crazy during finals and loss several hours of sleep. Kids in college seriously don't know how well they have it. I can't wait to be thousands of dollars in debt in student loans!

Speaking of schools, Parker sent me a video of us at Berkeley after the Stanford game. I don't know if you can find me, but I'm the short Asian girl in a blue hoodie and gold scarf, next to the tall blonde guy in the brown sweater. We're definitely in the last few frames.


That weekend was one of the best I've ever had. Sorry Joe, I don't have pictures 'cause my brother had the camera in Germany... but I do have stories!

Um, the point of this blog was to make a few New Year's Resolutions.
I never do this, but I feel like I should this year for some odd reason. So here it goes.

1. I'm going to start dancing again. I don't know how many times I've complained about not having taken a dance class in a billion years. It's ridiculous, and I'm going to do something about it.

2. I'm going to cut back on the drinking and smoking. Notice how I didn't say I was going to quit - going cold turkey would kill me.

3. I will not let myself be taken advantage of. I sort of realized that I can be too nice at times. I let too much shit happen to myself, and I need to learn how to say no to people (and things?).

Okay, that's it.

Happy Holidays!